Some people change

The picture on the left is me now, present day. The picture on the right was taken roughly a year ago. I'm amazed out how much I've changed in the year. I know it sounds like I am full of myself, but I'm not the same person I was a year ago. A year ago, I was sixteen, I was severely depressed with insanely suicidal thoughts. I cut between 6-8 inches off my hair and dyed it black. I became a stranger in my own body, it was like I didn't know who I was anymore. In August of last year I went to Parkview Behavioral Health (Charter Beacon) for issues with S.I. (self-harm). It was hard for me to admit it then, I didn't want to say it. I was so mad and angry at my family and at myself and I didn't know how to handle anything.
Now, I'm still angry and I bitter, but I handle it better. I have a whole team of people who help me and have kept me 'clean'. I know that it's okay to reach out and say "I need help."
A friend said something to me and it just made me realize how different I am. She told me that I had such an optimistic outlook. I didn't a year ago. Then I realized, life is so much bigger than this. It's bigger than my family and the disappointment. It's bigger than the pain. There's a beauty in it and I see it now.
-sigh-
long winded, I know.
I'm just thankful for everyone. I really am.
I'm not ashamed of who I was, but I'm proud of who I've become. If that makes any sense at all.
Love.Love.Love.
-Julia

Here's to the strong
Thanks to the brave
don't give up hope
some people change
against all odds
against the grain
love finds a way
some people change
-Montgomery Gentry;

"Let's go torch cars!" "With love?"

It's been awhile since we've gotten together as a group -Tara, Keith, and I. The last time we were all in the same room was Tara's going away party at the end of frosh year -that's insane. Keith and I were never really good friends, but we started talking a lot lately and now it's like we've always been good friends, which is awesome (seeing as he's dating one of my best friends, Felicia).
Tara was down from Canada for the weekend and she came to me and was like "We ALL have to get together and party." Well, she could only get ahold of me and Keith, but that's fine because Lynn and Jenny aren't getting along.
Felicia joined us this time and that rocked. We met at Brewha and drang tea & coffee and played monopoly til Felicia had to leave for work.
And then there were three.
Poor Keith, stuck with two girls, he was a minority :).
We hung out at the coffee house for awhile longer, playing a game of LIFE. That was fun. HA! We didn't even finish because we got so distracted. We ended up playing 'Would you rather?'. Then we went on an 'adventure' to get bread at Aldi's for my mom and to Wal-mart to see the hardwood floors (stupid stupid floors).
It was pretty ridiculous, but I laughed so hard my stomach hurt.
Anyways, how as your weekend?
-Julia

"I am Horatio Cane..."
"I want a piece of coffee..."

And the world's worst blogger goes tooooo...

Uhm HAI!
I so totally forgot about this thing, til I left a comment of Jenna's blog.
Who's Jenna?
Oh she's this messed chick -completely tore up from the floor up. LULZ. I love her. She's my mindtwin. Seriously, we were seperated a birth by a couple of years and a few hundred miles.

I'm going to Whitko this year. GOOOO WILDCATS -.-
Whatever, it's better than Chlamydia Shitty HS.
hmm.
idk
I love Carmine Giovinazzo.
better post latah hatahs!